ALRIGHT!!... THIS IS MY HOMIE, MY BEST FRIEND, THE ICING TO MY CAKE AND MORE!! SHES AWESOME AND SMART AND ALSO VERY SILLY!.. I FEEL LIKE I CAN TELL AND TRUST HER WITH ANYTHING! SO NEVER CHANGE FOR NO ONE YHU ARE TRULY AND ALWAYSZ WILL BE AWESOME! YHU ROCK!!!!!!! LUBB YA GIRL!!♥♥
ok pplsz ..if yhuve been exploring my blog...yhu would noticed i have 2 fictional story chaptersz about "thoughtsz of it all..the najee bennet story"..yea mhm...ive got alot of ideasz but now im asking yhu guysz..what do yhu think i should write next..there are no arong answersz well maybe but who knowsz!!....well comment ..and it would help if yhu read them first..idk there on the 3 page i think i gotta switch them around so yea..peace
so yea im kinda pissed off and depressed for many accountable reasonsz...idk im just sick of people..im sick of everything..i cant take it no more....and usually im that kind of person to stand up and fight/say what i believe in..but lately all i could do is stand back and watch people that i love and care for get hurt....and idk but it seemsz like everyone is mad at me..now when people get mad at me im like wtf! who givesz a damn,yhu'll get over it,go choke on yhur toungue, and i would say anything to that person to block the pain away..but it still remainsz in that same spot and hasnt move...wont move!....im not that type of person where i have to tell everyone my sad story and they have to take pity on me ....no..when they ask whatsz wrong ill tell them and yhu know wat scratch that <~scratch~if yhur close to me and i trust yhu then i might tell yhu...maybe i just need to think somemore..yhu wont believe ive been sitting in my room just staring at the wall doing nuthing and then chrisz callsz me and i talk to him about everything he is like the mac to my cheese!...aha nice right?.....and these people on the chat they brag about their selfsz and their lifesz like wtf....no one knowsz how to live a life anymore (if yhu know what i mean itsz ok if yhu dont)....we sit around and hope for a perfect life (now im not talking about everyone)...everyone has their upsz and downsz and no one has gud daysz all the time (if yhu do then yhur not human species)..everyone criesz,bleedsz,hurt,smile,getsz mad,fight,arguesz,etc....we are human beingsz.......so yea thatsz my thoughtsz thatsz been crossing my mind..there is more but it will seem like im writing a damn novel!!...and if it doesnt make ense to yhu..who givesz a damn..cuz i dont!!..not any more atleast!
Elizabeth was of a severe and cruel disposition, and her handmaidens led no joyous life. Slight faults are said to have been punished by most merciless tortures. One day, as the lady of Csejta was adoring at her mirror those charms which that faithful monitor told her were fast waning, she gave way to her ungovernable temper, excited, perhaps, by the mirror's unwelcome hint, and struck her unoffending maid with such force in the face as to draw blood. As she washed from her hand the stain, she fancied that the part which the blood had touched grew whiter, softer, and as it were, more young. Imbued with the dreams of the age, she believed that accident had revealed to her what so many philosophers had wasted years to discover, -- that in a maiden's blood she possessed the elixir vitae, the source of never failing youth and beauty! Remorseless by nature, she and now urged by that worst of woman's weaknesses, vanity, no sooner did the thought flash across her brain than her resolution was taken; the life of her luckless handmaiden seemed as nought compared with the rich boon her murder promised to secure.
Elizabeth, however, was wary as she was cruel. At the foot of the rock on which Csejta stands, was a small cottage inhabited by two old women, and between the cellar of this cottage and the castle was a subterranean passage, known only to one or two persons, and never used but in times of danger. With the aid of these crones and her steward, the poor girl was led through the secret passage to the cottage, where the horrid deed was accomplished, and the body of the murderess washed in virgin's blood! Not satisfied with the first essay, at different intervals, by the aid of these accomplices and the secret passage, no less than three hundred maidens were sacrificed at the shrine of vanity and superstition. Several years had been occupied in this pitiless slaughter, and no suspicion of the truth was excited, though the greatest amazement pervaded the country at the disappearance of so many persons.
At last, however, Elizabeth called into play against her, two passions stronger even than vanity or cunning -- love and revenge became interested in the discovery of the mystery. Among the victims of Csejta was a beautiful maiden who was beloved by and betrothed to a young man of the neighbourhood. In despair at the loss of his mistress, he followed her traces with such perseverance, that, in spite of the hitherto successful caution of the murderess, he penetrated the bloody secrets of the castle, and burning for revenge, flew to Presburg, boldly accused Elizabeth Bathory of murder before the Palatine, in open court, and demanded judgment against her.
So grave an accusation, so openly preferred against an individual of such high rank, demanded the most serious attention, and George Thurzo, the then Palatine, undertook to investigate the affair in person. Proceeding immediately to Csejta, before the murderess of her accomplices had any idea of the accusation, he discovered the still warm body of a young girl whom they had been destroying as the Palatine approached, and had not had time to dispose of before he apprehended them. The rank of Elizabeth mitigated her punishment to imprisonment for life, but her assistants were burned at the stake.
so yhu meet this guy and yhur really digging him..... so he's digging yhu as well..and first yhu guysz become friends. as our life daysz pass we start to become friendsz with benifitsz. then one night as we sit on the grass holding handsz....yhu say "i love yhu" "i love yhu" but i didnt hear "i love yhu". i heard "i wanna fuck yhu"....... i say to him "i dont love yhu"..but what i really wanted to say "i dont wanna fhuck yhu" and as i sit there wondering where did this guy come from.... are all guysz like this... now dont get me wrong im not a anti-lover or anything...it just didnt make any sense. i only knew this guy for 3 weeksz..he doesnt know anything about me but the basicsz like wat i like and dont like and where i live and who i live with ...yea level 1 ....the basicsz.... so as i look at him......thinking that he's so innocent....see if i would of said i loved him back let me tell yhu what would of went down... well we would of fhuked..then he would say "i love yhu " again but he wanted to say "i love sex"...he would of ask me out..out of spite..we would hold handsz as we walk through the mall...go on mini datesz..not much for us to be seen..yea hint hint "cheater"...so there would of been another girl on the side and i would found out..make a big fuss..call him all thisz sinfull namesz...and tell him to go fhuck off yhu lil cunt...by the way while im yelling at him and calling him all thisz namesz he's laughing it up..while his "side chick" is giving him a blow job as we speak..and thatsz wat i dont get..it seemsz like men are foolish for cheating on us and lying to us and getting caught..but the truth is ..women are the foolish onesz...we set are selfsz up as foolsz..and i guess we cant help that..we dont take the time to see past all of it..all the lies they tell us..now not all guysz are like that dont get me wrong...but just watch and you'll see..what kind of gamesz they play!!
I LOVE THISZ SONG......THIS SONG REMINDSZ ME OF MY EX-JEREMY...THIS WAS OUR SONG....BUT YHU KNOW I HAD TO END IT WITH HIM..I WASNT READY TO FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM..AND EVEN THOUGH HE SAID I LOVE YHU..ALL I COULD DO IS NOD MY HEAD..AND TELL HIM THE TRUTH..I BROKE HIS HEART THAT DAY BUT I TRIED EVERYTHING TO MAKE IT BETTER...BUT NOW WE ARE THE BEST OF FRIENDSZ..FROM TIME TO TIME ..HE'LL CALL ME AND TELL ME THAT HE WISHES HE WAS HOLDING ME ALL I DID WAS SMILED...WELL LOVE THISZ SONG....CHECK IT OUT $)